Gina asks,

As a person born in Aug 1966, I have (it seems to this amateur) that there is such an emphasis in my natal chart of Saturn and Chiron. I also have Uranus and Pluto in my 12th so I feel like I can get weighed down with the concerns of the collective and have experienced some eerie coincidences when I have experienced depression before a large event. So I can’t help but notice injustice (and there are so many). Then I can become cynical and embittered and distrustful.

Obviously this isn’t helpful to me or anyone.

I also was born with an Aries moon so my ire has really been stirred the last few years. So in my long winded way (sorry) in your blog entry when you suggest we ‘adapt,’ what do you mean. How do you see the balance between addressing injustices and adapting to new changes? What if the new changes seem unjust and unacceptable? Is it then time to break out the crying towel and have a misery party? I really would rather not.

This is a powerful question Gina, and not that easy to answer. First of all, the conjunction of Saturn (the Celestial Teacher) to Chiron the Soul Healer) in the mid 1960s is a difficult one that is often accompanied by deep soul wounds that create a great deal of emotional sensitivity.

When Saturn tightly aspects Chiron in the natal chart there is a requirement that we work diligently (Saturn) to heal our inner wounds which likely feel more intense than we imagine others to be.  You have fairly accurately described the tendencies of the other factors in your chart, and in addition you have a triple conjunction of planets in Cancer (Mars, Venus, Jupiter). I’ve noticed that people with a strong Cancerian influence also tend to feel the pain of the world in a more intensely personal way.

Still, regardless of our innate tendencies and predispositions towards certain behaviors we are not doomed to behave in ways that continue to reinforce negative patterns.

The first step towards finding a way towards greater balance with a chart like yours is to focus less on the challenges unfolding in the outer world and more on healing the inner wounds.  Some of this emotional pain you came into this life with, others were patterned into you as a child.  These wounds must be healed through feeling and sensation, by embracing and releasing the painful feelings as they emerge.  When we hold on to resentments and rage at the injustices in the world, of which there are many, we internalize these feelings and they become a part of our overall pattern which makes us less effective as agents of change.

Developing a mindfulness practice will help you to move through these feelings so that you can more easily release them.  Engaging in the world as an activist can help to relieve feelings of powerlessness, but can also reinforce rage and cynicism which keeps us from doing our own healing.

Personal transformation is a never ending balancing act.  It’s not easy, but it can be as simple as taking one simple moment at a time.  The Serenity Prayer that is used in twelve-step programs may seem trite but I believe it’s an important concept: that we must learn to accept the things we cannot change, ask for the courage to change those things that we know must change, and the wisdom to know the difference.


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